So I talked about the meaning behind this shoot a bit on twi..

So I talked about the meaning behind this shoot a bit on twitter and on my website! Yess I am starting to update my website again! Blog and all! chibinekocosplay.com so heres the speech: It’s a common misconception that people who do nude modeling or sex work are 100% confident in their bodies. The truth is, we aren’t. I can’t speak for every single sex worker or nude model, but I have never met any one who doesn’t have their insecurities. It is impossible to be perfect, no body is. I personally struggle with a lot of self image issues including body dysmorphia. From a very y0ung age I was always told I was too skinny, I was told no one would ever love me because I looked like a twig. I’m relatively comfortable with my current weight of 109lbs, but my goal is to get back to 115lbs. The Concept: I want this photo series to shatter the fantasy that all nude models are confident by highlighting the very things that make me insecure. I want to share my least favorite parts of my body with you. The biggest flaws with this photoshoot are being unable to paint my own back, and how difficult it is to differentiate the yellow from green. Green – I used green paint to highlight the spots that I feel confident about. These are areas I currently feel secure about. Yellow – I used yellow paint to highlight the spots that I have had issues with in the past but am over now. I don’t pay as much attention to these spots, but have caught myself looking at them with disgust before. Red – I used red paint to highlight the spots that I still feel insecure about. These are areas I desperately wish I could change. These are the spots that make me delete photos if they’re prominent enough. I would like to add in that I have not received any cosmetic alterations. I have never had cosmetic surgery, implants, injections, or any procedures to alter my appearance. I felt it was important to leave my face clean of all makeup as well, since this is an honest and raw shoot. I see absolutely no shame or have any ill feelings towards cosmetic surgery or injections. I have a few procedures I am interested in myself, but I’m working on owning the things that make me me before taking drastic measures.